My phone is still gone. I asked in my school but nobody found it there and i called the bus company but nothing found there either. I gave up hope really. It sucks not having a phone and I really need a new one but yet I don't want to buy one because it would be so..well..final. It would mean being ok with not having it anymore and actually moving on. And god knows I hate moving on. lol

Anyways, we'll see. At the moment I don't have the money to buy a new one anyways. And I was actually saving up money for A. going to London since I have to pay for my trip by myself after all, and also I was thinking I might be able to go over and visit a bit in June when I am done with classes but not officially done with school, B. buying a laptop so I would have a computer when I am in England. I have a laptop now but it's old, it's broken, and generally pretty crap. Oh and I have a Virus aswell. A cute one I must admit though. It's one of those "HEY!! YOU HAVE A VIRUS!" viruses. It's annoying yet makes me smile that my virus tells me that there is a virus on here. Like it is pretending to not be one and blame someone else as if I wouldn't get what was going on.
And last but not least, C. I am also saving up to go to the US again seeing as dear Lisa is getting married. And since she is too impatient to wait until I actually have time and money she will now probably have to live without me. *sigh* It sucks because I really wanted to go but I just don't see that I will be able to because I will be working as an aupair and I can't just say "I'll leave your little kids all alone this week because I have to go to the US". And also a trip and a stay there isn't too cheap really. I'll see what I can do but I am kinda doubting I will be able to manage it. I mean, paying like 100 Euros for a trip to London is one thing, paying over 1000 Euros is another thing. But we'll see. I wish I wasn't so poor.

And one more thing I need to get out:
I HATE PEOPLE SOMETIMES!!!!
grah!!
I have sooooo incredibly sucky "friends"!! It's incredibly. It has nothing to do with me really but I am sooo disappointed. I am not really supposed to talk about it but since A. nobody on here knows them and B. I won't mention any names I might aswell tell you a bit about it.

There is this couple in my circle of friends who have been dating off and on within the past couple months. They got back together, broke up, got back together, broke up, etc. About 7 times within 3-4 months. And every time because the boy would change his mind. "I love you."/"I don't love you anymore."/"No, I really do love you."/"Sorry, don't love you anymore."/etc.

Now that was bad enough and the fact that the girl was actually STUPID enough to go along with it was another thing (and don't give me the "but she loves him" bullcrap. Love has to go both ways and if someone treats you that way you have to WAKE UP and realise you are wasting your time!!!) but the worst part is yet to come.

So in January was the last time they broke up (after secretly dating again since they knew everyone would tell her how stupid she was and him what an ass/idiot he was if they made it official) and not even a week after he did, he went and had sex with another girl. (as in, the same week he had had sex with his now exgf he did this).

Now you think THAT is the bad thing?! nooooo, there is yet more to come. What happened, you ask? Well you see, she got pregnant!
Yep. One-night-stand and she got pregnant. Because he doesn't like using condoms and she didn't take the pill. And because both of them were too stupid to think about anything else, she is now pregnant. One month to be exact.

Now you think THAT is the worst part?! Still wrong. At least in my opinion.
The worst part is that his exgf, who is also friends with the girl her ex had sex with, found out about the pregnancy and went straight to the girl telling her she HAS to get an abortion, basically saying how there is no real other possibility because if she got the kid she would ruin his, the baby's and her own life.

Now you see, I am not 100% and completly against abortion. I myself know I would never ever do it but I also think that it should be the mothers decision and I think that there are cases where it is indeed better if the girl is aloud to have one (e.g. rape). And also I think that if you really want one and it would be illegal, you would still find a way and it might get really dangerous and stuff. So I rather know that there is the legal possibility than for them to have some guys stick a knife into them and try and get rid of the baby that way.

Anyways, the thing is that my "friend" (the exgf of that boy) is totally manipulating her. She is going to the doctors with that girl today and said to me and my friend how she is going to everything so that she will have an abortion. She is being incredibly egoistic because all she wants is to be with that boy and she knows that he doesn't really want to take on the responsibility a child would bring along. He is such an idiot and way too imature yet but he has to learn to be responsible with his actions at some point. And I think it's not even fair that a baby is supposed to be killed just because some egoistic person wants to be with her idiot exbf and does not want him to have anyone else in his life. (which a child would be someone else of course).

Grah!!! I am sooo pissed. So now I am planning on going to that girl and telling her about what her "friend" is doing to her. I mean, I don't really know the pregnant girl that well but I want her to realise what that other girl is doing before it's too late and she makes the wrong decision just because she was forced into it and manipulated. If SHE wants to get an abortions due to lots of reasons I can imagine, I will be ok with it. I mean, as I said, I think it's her choice. But I just want to make sure that SHE really wants it, not her "friend".

There you go. I live in a fucking soap opera, I tell you. *sigh*
Have a good one.