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Well quite a bit happened, yet nothing really. Things change as I go along. I am trying to change things as well. Yet I am really scared and uneasy with changes. haha
I am in love with my best friend.
He doesn't feel the same.
Not an easy situation but I realised that the problem is that I don't love myself. Not that I love him. I mean, it sucks not being loved back but I'd be able to handle it alot better if I would love and accept me.
Fact is, I don't. I rather dislike myself really.
So I decided to change it. I started to fast today. Only drinking for the next week. Soup, tea, juice, water. No real food.
No worries, mum is watching me and I won't eat nothing really. I'll just eat differently.
And I am started working out and excercising as well.
Because you see another fact is, I don't love myself because I don't like my looks. It's not becuase OTHERS dont. I am loved by alot of people no matter how fat or ugly I am. But I want to be able to look into the mirror and be happy with what I see. I'm not trying to get extremly skinny, just so "skinny" that I can be happy with myself.
Anyway, other than that I have another week and a half of vacation.
Oh and I booked my ticket to go to London! I am going over for 2 weeks in June to visit Paul and then coming back for my prom and graduation and all. And my best friend from here is coming as well. Not for 2 weeks, just for 5 days though. But I am still sure it'll be fun.
And I send out my application for the Au Pair agency and already got an E-mail that it got there so that's good.
Can't wait to have my family. hehe
So yeah, that's all from me.
Hope everyone else is doing alright.
Take care everyone!!
I love you all!
Carla
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That's all! 
*I say good bye with a kiss from me* 
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Where are you gonna do the AuPair?
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Ykrajinci, prujednyjtes' do ~clUAby
Love, you know, seeks to make happy rather than to be happy. Ralph Connor
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Here's to self-love!
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"I am not so serious, this passion is a plagiarism,
I might join your century, but only on a rare occasion,
I was taken out before the labor pains set in
and now: Behold the world's worst accident!
I am the girl anacronism!"
~The Dresden Dolls
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Evil beware, i have waffles
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And yeah, I won't over do it. I am also doing lots of excersising now and hope that's doing it's part aswell. I don't only want to get less fat but also more fit.
Thanks again.
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Need help? You'll find it at *here-to-help!!
Official promoter of ~magicalfangirlsclub!!
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Ykrajinci, prujednyjtes' do ~clUAby
Love, you know, seeks to make happy rather than to be happy. Ralph Connor
--
"I am not so serious, this passion is a plagiarism,
I might join your century, but only on a rare occasion,
I was taken out before the labor pains set in
and now: Behold the world's worst accident!
I am the girl anacronism!"
~The Dresden Dolls
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